<sigh>
I REALLY want to start a blog for Elise. I feel so bad that I haven't done it yet. She deserves one. I need one...an outlet for so much that I think and feel...a place to "collect" links to other blogs and sites, but I know I just don't have the time to add another "thing" to my day. And I would just feel HORRIBLE that I couldn't find a few minutes every couple days or so to devote to my sweet angel. I think that's what scares me the most. What a terrible situation to be in.
I think I'm just grumpy and sad today...some days are so much harder than others and I never know when or why. I just want to cry, but I can't, too much to do, no time for that
Woke up late today,
And I still feel the sting of the pain,
But I brushed my teeth anyway.
I got dressed through the mess,
And put a smile on my face.
I got a little bit stronger.
...
I know my heart will never be the same.
But I'm telling myself I'll be okay,
Even on my weakest days,
I get a little bit stronger.
(Sara Evans)
Sometimes, though, I really want to just be able to focus on Elise
But, if there is one thing I have learned being the mother of 4 living children, it's that it doesn't matter what I want or when I need something, someone else needs something and that pulls rank.
<sigh>
it's that dreaded time of year again for me...3 months filled with so much emotion and no time to process any of them. I just have to keep going, getting things done for everyone else...
((And well, now you see it...my blog for Elise :) <3))
I REALLY want to start a blog for Elise. I feel so bad that I haven't done it yet. She deserves one. I need one...an outlet for so much that I think and feel...a place to "collect" links to other blogs and sites, but I know I just don't have the time to add another "thing" to my day. And I would just feel HORRIBLE that I couldn't find a few minutes every couple days or so to devote to my sweet angel. I think that's what scares me the most. What a terrible situation to be in.
I think I'm just grumpy and sad today...some days are so much harder than others and I never know when or why. I just want to cry, but I can't, too much to do, no time for that
Woke up late today,
And I still feel the sting of the pain,
But I brushed my teeth anyway.
I got dressed through the mess,
And put a smile on my face.
I got a little bit stronger.
...
I know my heart will never be the same.
But I'm telling myself I'll be okay,
Even on my weakest days,
I get a little bit stronger.
(Sara Evans)
Sometimes, though, I really want to just be able to focus on Elise
But, if there is one thing I have learned being the mother of 4 living children, it's that it doesn't matter what I want or when I need something, someone else needs something and that pulls rank.
<sigh>
it's that dreaded time of year again for me...3 months filled with so much emotion and no time to process any of them. I just have to keep going, getting things done for everyone else...
((And well, now you see it...my blog for Elise :) <3))
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