September 2, 2009

I ran across this song this morning looking for something totally different and it really hit me hard...covers a lot of what I am thinking and feeling, in more ways than many of you even know.

Elise is always on my mind and as I approach five months of living without her, along with milestones for my other children, I find myself missing her more and more. Yes, life does go on and it even gets "easier" but everyday is still a struggle and everyday I wish she were here with us. I feel cheated. So many other things have happened in the last 5 months since her passing that I don't feel I have even had the opportunity to grieve her properly and I'm not sure when and if I ever will. So, I guess random sad days will just have to get me through.

I still miss you, angel, and love you more than anyone knows.


I Will Carry You
Selah

There were photographs I wanted to take
Things I wanted to show you
Sing sweet lullabies, wipe your teary eyes
Who could love you like this?
People say that I am brave but I'm not
Truth is I'm barely hanging on
But there's a greater story
Written long before me
Because He loves you like this

So I will carry you
While your heart beats here
Long beyond the empty cradle
Through the coming years
I will carry you
All my life
And I will praise the One whose chosen me
To carry you

Such a short time
Such a long road
All this madness
But I know
That the silence
Has brought me to His voice
And He says...I've shown her photographs of time beginning
Walked her through the parted seas
Angel lullabies, no more teary eyes
Who could love her like this?

I will carry you
While your heart beats here
Long beyond the empty cradle
Through the coming years
I will carry you
All your life
And I will praise the One whose chosen Me
To carry you


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J2CnUtVY35o